Yeah its been a long time since I wrote to my fans here on my website, its not laziness, or me not appreciating my fans because I change my status on facebook, twitter all the time, I think sometimes I  want to write more and more positive things then negative. Because its so easy to write about negative stuff and for me thats not good because Im a positive dude. So much has been going through my mind lately and if I was to write on here it wouldnt have been a good look but again no excuses I owe it to my fans and people around the world who follow me my time and thoughts so I DO APOLOGIZE. Basketball has been going just okay...we are now 12 wins 9 losses in 7th place with 9 games left in the season. I been having a good year avg. 15pts, still leading league in assist at 5ast per game but its been one of the most frustrating years for me personally and overall team wise. Im a real dude so I know what I need to improve on and what I need to do to make my team successful and myself. I havent shot the ball like I wanted to so far this season but I have done everything else right. It gets frustrating at times but I continue to work and stay positive. Whats tough is coming to the gym not knowing what team we will be..today we are good then the next we not that good, I just never know what to expect and for me basketball is my life, this is what I do its all I know so I take it tough when things go bad. My people tell me all the time DEE just take it as your job now, I say yes you right but on the other hand this is my life, I love this game, I JUST TAKE BASKETBALL TOO MUCH to the heart. I can go into detail about a lot of stuff thats been bothering me but LISTEN thats a golden rule in this business that I personally would never cross and thats discussing family business. I just have to follow my rules of life, thats stay positive and be strong thats what makes me special in my opinion. Im not going to breakdown nor start being negative because thats not me, I just want to lace up my shoes and compete, play this game I was born to play.

Its been the same stuff everyday 2 practices a day, a lot of writing of songs, movies, and sleeping. I actually been getting out the house a lot lately due to the frustrations from work, but nothing major I just know MAY will be here in no time and its no telling when I will come back to ITALY so Im just enjoying my time here as best as I can. Im still on my pizza diet thats all I really eat and it goes well when watching the NCAA tournament games this is the best time of the year. I just been chillin though, trying to go to the gym and get better and continue to chase my dreams. I been working hard that would never get questioned, Im doing everything to get better and I want to show improvement every time I step on the court. Second half of the season teams been doing a lot of things to slow me down and take me out the game, I have to do a better job of getting involved in the game and not only making myself better, but somehow some way making others better because without 8 guys clicking and playing well there is no chance for victory. I just want to win and finish the season on a great note thats my goal...Im coming off my worst game of the season tonight playing 18mins 5pts,2ast,3rebs in a big loss on the road, and yes Im HEATED, UPSET, DISAPPOINTED I cant hold it in because I PLAY HARD everyday, every night I deserve to play, I want to play, I want to win so Im sitting here so upset about this loss and knowing I sat on the bench and watched us get beat by a team that wasnt better than us. It hurts LOSING is one of the worst feelings in the world, I cant sleep, I cant think, Im just sitting here trying to figure out what Im about to do because I cant stop thinking about the game. IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME...Basketball has taken over my mind I have always used my blog to let out everything Im thinking...MY BLOG and my music has been my outlets to letting out my feelings and thoughts and I want to thank everyone who take time out of their lives to read what I FEEL AND THINK. I cant lie I do left a lot of stuff out but what I do write is what I was feeling at the time, its from the heart, its ME, its not someone else writing for me.

But no matter what happens I stay positive, I still think positive sometimes Im so mad, upset but I still find a way to stay strong and get through it. I was told a while back just remember to be DEE BROWN, smiling, positive, energetic, dont let no one take that away from you...That message stuck with me from that day, and trust me its so hard to stay happy, positive all the time because at the end of the day we are all human and will face different challenges, struggles, obstacles, everything thats life. But after all the anger, frustration clears I see the big picture, I look in the mirror and understand my purpose, I understand what made me who I am as a person and player. I just want to continue to improve as a person and player use these experiences in my advantage and continue to move on and pray to see another day. With so many things going through my head the main thing that sticks out is there are people in the world going through worse things than you. I just pray for peace, happiness for everyone, I pray that people continue to live their lives and stay strong when those tough times come because they are going to come I promise that, its how you prepare and cope with them thats important. Its like everyday, every week, every year I get stronger, and with every experience Im learning how strong I really am.

Other things thats going on in my life,grandma in and out the hospital I think about her all the time GREAT LADY I miss her and pray for her in these times, she been sick for a while but when I use to see her she always use to say dont worry about me, Im fine and me knowing she wasnt she never showed it, she always would say she was fine, such a strong lady I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ZEMAE...Im planning my mom to come visit me LORD knows she needs a vacation, my mom has come to every city I been in so Im blessed,while we are blessed to travel the whole world GOD is so GREAT, so mom I will make that happen. I been off the internet for a while due to my MAC computer which I had since beginning of 07 going out on me, I never got a new one because the computer had an essential history behind it. One day Im sitting on the plane listening to my IPOD, when I turn to Carlos Boozer UTAH JAZZ, and I ask him a question about his nice 17 ince MAC computer and as the conversation ended he told me DEE BROWN, he called me my whole name, YOU CAN HAVE IT! Im like for real thanks my dude and it was something I would never forget because not only was it expensive, it was a act of kindness and it meant a lot to a young rookie like myself. The computer had like 6000 songs on it, it had so much stuff on it I was like a little kid, so make long story short I never felt the need to go and buy new one I LOVE MY COMPUTER. I woke up a few days back and it just didnt turn on and Im like OH NO please come on because my dumb self didnt save none of my music Im currently working on, I mean all of my projects on there like 150 beats so I was so upset and I was within internet for a few days. So I recently got another computer it was tough seeing the other one go, I have to go to MAC store since there isnt one in AVELLINO I will wait and hopefully I can get all my data off the computer lets pray. IF not thats a lesson learned.

I only have one day free during the week so I have used MONDAY for my studio time. I have found a studio in a town near AVELLINO and I have gone 3 times recorded 19 songs and OH BOY its been an experience because this is my second time working with someone who dont understand ENGLISH. But we have been very successful, I really enjoy going to the studio its been a great experience, and its my NEW HOBBY its my new outlet, something I needed to clear my head and to get away from basketball for a few hours Im so blessed to have the opportunity to do music in another country its amazing every step I think about it. I never stop working, work never stops I just want to get better and become the best I can be thats all I want. I also been stepping my movie game up, I love watching a great movie whether sad, action, comedy, just switch up the movie selection so I can have something to talk about when I get to the gym with the fellas. And you know I stay on the internet checking up on everything thats going on back with the family, with my buddies, with local rappers, just everyone thats what you do when you are 5000 miles away from home.

I could write all night due to the lack of communication on my part I have so much going through my head right now...After a tough loss on the road in which I played only 18 mins then I had to take an 8 hour bus ride back home right after but thats the life. Oh yeah by the way FYI another great story we took an EXPRESS TRAIN to the game....FIRST TIME EVER it was a great experience. Now I have to close by saying thank you, thank you and thank you again to my loyal fans who take time out to read my blogs, follow my career, it means a lot to me, days when Im not feeling all that great I received the best messages in the world I read it and then say I wish I could give that person a hug right now and say thank you so much. Those message, your kinds words, your attention means a lot to me and its always appreciated and taken in right to my heart. Im still doing me, working hard trying to be the best I can be, season is almost over 9 games, then I hope postseason, I will make sure I leave my mark here in AVELLINO its up to me, I have to go out there and do it, its more than talk, but I will be ready I promise by using what made me who I am staying postive and being strong...HAVE A GREAT WEEK GOD is so so GREAT your boy DUNNY

PS sorry for the bad grammar I just purchase a new laptop here in ITALY its keyboard is in ITALIAN, I have not quite figured it out yet LOL

QUOTE OF THE DAY Everyone was put on this earth for something, everyone has their purpose in life, accept it, believe in it and make the best out of it...

DEE BROWN ILLIN PRINCE

ONE MAN FASTBREAK