Its been rough on my team and me these past 4 weeks as we dropped 4 straight games. On Sunday we loss at home against Milano in a tough game. We played well for 35 minutes and then broke down at the end. I played a decent game 16 pts,4ast,3rebs,3stls but I was very upset with myself because I let the referees and my defender get in my head. The referees told me all game that I deserved a technical foul because I was reacting too much to body connect and wanted a foul. I really thought they controlled the game and I was one of the players who got the bad end of the stick which is my fault because I just should play thats all. But I'm learning every game, every week and its only going to get tougher. I really hate losing and it bothers me for some days and take time for me to leave the game behind me because I remember possessions where I could have done this or that, I understand possessions now and how essential each one is and it bothers me. Its been a good week of practice though and I'm focused on this next game which is another big game because its a derby game, once meanings one of our rival teams come into our gym to play. So now that we are going through these struggles I'm saying in my mind OKAY LETS GO! Lets get back to winning games and playing good basketball as a team.

I been packing my stuff getting ready to come home for Christmas break. I have to move out my apartment here anyway due to some minor problems so I have packed all my things so I can return to the best city in the world CHICAGO! I can't wait to see my family and friends. I miss my sons like crazy and can't wait to see them and take them Christmas shopping. My mom, grandma I know is excited to see me as well they are my number fans and are so mad they can't watch my games but I make sure they know how I did, (if they don't check right away). I also been on my music grind, I'm currently working on 5 projects, yes I know I just love it, it keeps me balanced and happy. Basketball can be a stressful game at times, along with the lifestyle so I have found something special and something that keeps my mind free. I been going through a lot these past few weeks and I think music has allowed me to release some of my thoughts in a creative and beneficial way. I was talking with my coach and this isn't the first time I had this, but people know I'm positive, energetic, upbeat person but at the end of the day I'm human and go through different things that may effect my mood. With my music I feel nothing but freedom, love, happiness, and control. One of my goals is to write a book about my life and maybe another one for kids. My music is a start for me, a way to express myself and something to keep my mind and focus balanced. 

Other than that, I just been watching games, American Football and NBA games. I just love sports and somedays I have to stay up until 3-4 in the morning to watch but I'm still excited and love watching the greatest athletes in the world compete. The NEWS right now is disappointing me, but making me understand that there's a lot going on in this world. I'm so blessed and grateful to be doing what I'm doing for a living. I just try to live the life I want and always dreamed about.. I want everyone to live their life to the fullest, be happy, and do what makes you happy. Everyone makes mistakes even the greatest athletes in the world, the greatest artists, the greatest whatever I just hope and pray God forgives them and move on. Thats why I try to make a difference in someone else life everyday because I know I have done wrong in my life because I'm not perfect but those things I try to make someone understand that is wasn't right that you can do this to make your life better. All I can say is learn from other people's mistakes and make sure you live your life.

Yesterday we had a appearance at our gym where 300 kids came, played on our court and after we signed autographs and took pictures with the kids. I love doing that it makes my day and make me appreciate being a professional basketball player. I remember when I was a little boy and I was in that same position I use to look getting autographs and collecting them, showing it off to my friends at school, but I can't lie I have had many opportunities to see professional basketball players. So I make sure I give kids 100% attention when they see me because its an honor to sign my name, be this person they look up to, its an honor and privilege. Then today we went to a hospital to take gifts, take pictures, sign autographs for the kids, that cheered me up and put a smile on my face, it made my week a lot better because thats what its all about for real making a difference and giving back to the community. I love doing it and I have been doing it since my college days and I never needed to be pushed, or given credit in the newspaper or media for doing it, its always from the heart. It was a great day for me.

I have one more game to play, which is a big derby game and then I'm back home. I will keep everyone updated on whats going on and for those who check my website everyday sorry its been awhile since I wrote something its just been...okay okay no excuses its always my fault. I been doing good though never could complain GOD is so so Great to me and my family I appreciate all the love and support I receive along with the HATE because thats the new LOVE I guess...But thanks for taking the time out to read what I was feeling at the time much love yo boy DUNNY

Quote of the day: "Everyone makes mistakes, its what you do after that makes the difference"

DEE BROWN "ILLINI PRINCE"

ONE MAN FASTBREAK